all the tomorrows

prose by kate esser

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​all the tomorrows that wait for us
looming just out of reach
as the sun sets on today
and the dusk fades into the dawn
unknowns compel us to wait and wonder a little

how beautiful that is
to be at the edge of forever
dependent on our God
to receive all the tomorrows
and every moment they hold
here on earth
or there in eternity

Ephesians 3 brings much comfort to my restless soul when dreaming of what all the tomorrows may hold,

"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we can ask or imagine according to His power that is at work within us - to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen."

James 4 also humbles me, bringing to light my pride in my anxiousness and vain attempts to grasp control of all my tomorrows, 
"Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will travel to such and such a city and spend a year there and do business and make a profit.” You don’t even know what tomorrow will bring—what your life will be! For you are like smoke that appears for a little while, then vanishes. Instead, you should say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” But as it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. So it is a sin for the person who knows to do what is good and doesn’t do it."

through all my planning and dreaming, it remains but a wisp of smoke.
yet when in the hands of my creator, it is more than anything imaginable to me.

so we wait and we wonder and we hope
fully dependent on our creator
for anything tomorrow may hold
that we may glorify Him
and let go of ourselves
for all the tomorrows
and eternity after that

all the tomorrows are already known and held by the creator of the universe. & you, my dear friend, are loved and cared for by that same creator. the one who is sovereign over creation knows your name and every quirk that makes you you. He pursues your heart day after day. do not be afraid of what tomorrow holds. because He knows you best and will take every moment into consideration to bring your heart closer to His. some moments may be hard, but look at them as refinement. He is shaping you and asking for you to trust Him to sustain you for all the tomorrows that He already holds.